July 18, 2008
bad days
i don't use "swear" words, but i do say, "oh my gosh" a lot, a whole lot. i've been trying to stop saying that, so kayla and i made a deal that she would have to listen and when i said that, she would remind me of it and give me 3 chances. if i used all 3 chances up in one day, i would get punishment, which was no scrapbooking, to include looking at scrapbooking sites or magazines. many of you know that scrapbooking is my creative outlet and something i truly enjoy, so this really was a punishment.
i should mention that what i am trying to do with this trial was 2-fold. first, it would help me to stop saying that, but second, and more importantly, it would let kayla know that even mommies need reminding to do good and be good. mommies are not perfect. no matter how big you are, how old you are, how smart you are - nobody is perfect and we make mistakes and that is okay. we get punishment, but we are still wanted and we are still loved.
in the past 3 weeks, we have had to repair so many different things in this house, both air conditioners, some outside plumbing, and then yesterday, the water heater. i just could not believe all that was happening. i was literally in tears. kayla saw how frustrated i was.
k: mommy, you can say "oh my gosh" today if you want and you won't lose any chances.
m: why? if i say that, i'm supposed to get punishment.
k: but you're having a bad day so just for today, you can say it, okay?
and that made me feel so much better.
because even mommies are allowed bad days.